Isn’t it funny how our moods, our emotions affect our everyday lives? Take reading for example – I always find it hard to read when I am stressed, upset or feeling down. Ironically, that is when I need to read the most. I try to fight the reading slump as much as I can, but after a while you just have to go with it. When something stops being fun there really isn’t any point in continuing with it.
I started this blog, originally on blogger, at a really bad point in my reading life. I had read a lot of books in 2010, and had been on a reading high for several years (barring a small reading slump when I started college). As I got into 2011 I craved the same enjoyment that I had got out of books before, but it just didn’t happen. I still loved (and still do love) reading, and I thought that starting a blog might help me to not only keep reading, but also to talk about books and therefore get a more interactive experience.
But that didn’t happen. Instead I found myself in a strange situation – I wanted to read, and blog about it, but I didn’t have the energy, and when I did have the energy I found myself criticising books that in the past I would have just enjoyed. I felt that, seeing as I was going to write about it, I had to have both good and bad things to say about them and I had to analyse things. I also felt pressure to read faster, because most book bloggers read hundreds of books a year.
Likewise, I also found myself putting limits on what I was reading – because I put limits on what I was going to blog about. For instance, I decided that I wouldn’t review classic books, and so every one that I picked up felt like it was an ’empty’ week – because I obviously wouldn’t be writing about it.
I have a lot of respect for book bloggers – I mean the hours they have to put in to what they do, to do it successfully, must be huge. The only reason I am writing this at all is because I don’t want to leave this blog open-ended. Even if no-one reads this, I need closure. I need to know that the door is shut on ‘I Remember Delight’, and the best way to do that is to publish the words that declare it.
So, basically, this is goodbye. I want to thank everyone who took the time to read my stuff and to ‘follow’ my blog. It means a lot to me 🙂